Quarantine Chronicles: A Photo Log (2 of x)

debs/ May 24, 2020

Straight Talk: I’ve actually gone to work a couple times (albeit much, much less often than my colleagues), so I’m not even sure I can even call these “Quarantine Chronicles” anymore. Just in case you (or future me) are (will be) a stickler about these things.

Last month was probably the busiest I’ve ever had to be for work… I don’t think I’ve worked this hard since school!

I used to think that people were humble bragging when they complained about “keeping on top of their inbox” at work. For the first time I found myself being the one who’s suffocated by their inbox, waking up anxious about what the inbox might look like after a whole night of harassment, and developing an unhealthy relationship with the vibration of incoming phone calls… Even if it’s a from our neighbours above/below. Actually, any vibrations in general.

For someone who’d never picked up their phone on behalf of their parents’ when they weren’t home, I was suddenly taking calls on the company phone, while keeping someone else on hold, while someone else on hold starts calling me on my personal phone, only to find out someone left a voicemail while they couldn’t reach me.

The thing is, in the time of corona, one has the “reasonable expectation” to have personal space. Given that I feel even more entitled to having alone time that usual, phone calls are uniquely invasive. Phones are basically designed to reach into the confines of my home to sap my precious energy in the very place (and at the very times) I expect to recharge. I’m working from home, but it’s also the most social I’ve ever had to be for work. I even felt myself resenting the Zoom calls and well-meaning “check ins” from friends and family.

Still, I would take this kind of busy-ness over school any day. It’s the busy-ness of being “needed” rather than of self-preservation, a busy-ness that others can benefit from. At the same time, I pains me that globalized capitalism preys on this need to be needed and demands our utmost flexibility to fit into the demands the work makes on us. The flexibility I am able to offer work puts me at an advantage to other candidates with more constraints, thereby increasing the flexibility expected of all workers; flexibility itself becomes self-preservation. In my case, I can consider myself fortunate that my work is appreciated genuinely and compensated accordingly compared to others who work longer thankless-er hours, even though it should be the norm, not the exception.

Bunny Diaries

All this is to say, that time has often measured in bunny pictures.

I know, I know. The only thing more distasteful than having someone’s pet pictures forced into your eyeballs, is having someone insist you see pictures of their babies. Actually, I take that back–there must be a special place in hell for engagement pictures. Wait no, how could I forget about pregnancy pictures??

Anyway, I’ve done you the service of separating the bunny pictures. (And probably did myself the service of salvation from eternal damnation, by my own standards, in the process.)

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